Peace and Quiet

I declared two nights of "Peace and Quiet" this weekend, Friday and Saturday. I've been going out an average of four nights a week and I'm burned out. Beads went home for Easter and I passively avoided Tiny, giving me some much needed rest. But "rest" doesn't necessarily mean "antic-free".

Thursday night I went for an early happy hour with some people in my office, including Trouble. It was the first time I talked to her at any length and I noticed a couple of things. She is well traveled, articulate, driven, and obviously very bright. The down side is that Trouble's favorite topic is Trouble. To some degree we are all like this, but I sat back and listened to her for a while and whenever possible she turned the conversation back around to herself, specifically, how cultured she is. It may just be an insecurity of being in a new group. I won't judge yet.

I would like to add a footnote to this story (pun intended). We had drinks outside, and Trouble had on flip flops and she has gigantic feet. Not only are they long, and wide, but they are thick. Her feet look like Barny Rubbles'. They are block-like with giant bulbous toes. Furthermore, they look like she never wears shoes. They were black, crusty and all jacked up. I tried to snap a picture with my cell phone but I wasn't sly enough. Perhaps she's training for a marathon...barefoot. That said, Sasquatch feet are not a deal breaker for me, I just thought they were amusing. If there weren't a lot of people around I would have probably said something to her (in a gentle-ribbing sort of way). On Friday I thanked her for arranging the happy hour, but I never got a reply.

After happy hour I met up with Tiny and got drinks and dinner. She is becoming very clingy. Whenever we hang out she wants to hold hands, and is constantly trying to kiss me. I'm not down with PDA, and especially not down with it when it feels like the girl is trying to mark her turf.

Post dinner Tiny came back to my place. While we were having sex Tiny said "I like it when you put a finger in my ass", so I did. Afterwards I went to the bathroom and when I turned on the light I was shocked/terrified to see that my finger was covered in dry blood. My finger nails are very short, so I don't think the blood was the result of something I did. I think it's safe to say that will be the last time anything belonging to me goes into Tiny's butt.

Tiny leaves Friday for vacation. I am going to use her trip to gently phase her out of the picture. There isn't really anything wrong with her, there just isn't anything great about her either. I realize this weekend that if I would rather be alone than spend time with someone I'm supposedly "dating", it is likely not going very well.

Yesterday I met Bear for coffee in Eastern Market. I know she goes there most Sundays, so I gave her a call and we agreed to meet up. While I waited for Bear to arrive I walked through the flea market and spotted two beautiful girls selling creams and lotions. One girl looked younger, had a dark complexion, dark hair, and bright blue eyes. The other girl was slightly older than the first (still youngish), much taller, but also had dark features and a fantastic body. There were both beautiful, and if I had to guess, Brazilian.

Once again I just found myself staring at the two girls, wondering what I could possibly say to them to strike up a conversation. There wasn't a single thing at their booth I had any business purchasing for myself, so that tactic was out of the question. If I had a few cocktails in my I'm sure I would have come up with something funny to break the ice, but it was 9:30 in the morning and that obviously wasn't the case. In the absence of booze, a wingman would have made it a bit easier, but I was solo. After circling them a few times like a hungry shark I eventually gave up and got hopped on on legal stimulants with Bear, completely ashamed with myself.

My sister isn't a big fan of Beads, and has made modified her offer of setting me up with Stella. She will only do it if I break up with Beads. I countered that if I get to date three with Stella I will cut all ties with Beads.